Those words that I had been dreaming to hear from him. It was the most sad situation to hear such words, as he cried, and I cried, it was a moment of intense vulnerability and pure emotion that it was almost unbearable. But it was beautiful, the honesty that came out of our night, because that was make or break. But we are one, and in that moment, I’ve never wanted to be with someone so much as I did him. I wanted to shield him from the entire world, to tell him that he didn’t have to be scared anymore, to hold him so tightly and to never let go. I wanted to show him how much he meant to me, and to tell him to fight for me.
And as we lay in bed, when I looked into those sad, wet, tired eyes of his, I knew that I wanted him. My heart almost broke in 2. From the pain, and from the sadness. The pain, and realisation of a person who lied to me for so long, but also the desperation and sadness that he wanted to make it better.
And suddenly he looked so young, he looked lost, vulnerable, scared. And I wanted to protect him, from all that pain.
I can’t wait for the day when I can call him mine, when I don’t have to share him with anyone else, where I can have all his love, and passion. For someone to trust my secrets, my fears, and my ambitions with. I hope that that day comes soon, and we can have our ‘summer’, one which we talked of so fondly and with so much excitement. To go on our adventures and walks hand in hand, to take silly photos and bathe in the warmth of us. And maybe for me that’s all a dream I have created in my head, but I’m hoping with all my heart that it will come true.
Don’t promise that you will never hurt me, just promise that you will never lie to me.
I love you too.